Tag: Miscarriage
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Rebirth in the Face of Loss
I did something I’ve never done before. I removed all distractions. I claimed space and time. I unraveled to allow myself to feel it all. Every emotion. On March 30, 2022, I glared at the ultrasound technician as she searched for my baby. I looked for any microexpression that could indicate an answer. Her face…
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A Letter to Calm Your Nerves, Unborn Daughter
After my pregnancy losses, I met with a spiritual medium to try to connect with my spirit babies (if you’re unfamiliar with the term, a spirit baby is the soul of an unborn child). The truth is I was terrified. I was grieving. My heart was fragile. And I was fearful of the damage a…
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My Grief Awakened My Soul
We grieve as hard as we love. That’s how I knew just how much I loved my spirit babies. My miscarriages felt unsurvivable. They devastated my soul. They ripped my heart open. They left me shattered. But I know now they also allowed me to rebuild. There’s no way past or over grief, there’s only…
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Healing the Heartbreak of Miscarriage—With Some Help
In just a moment, a single life-defining moment, my miracle was gone (again). The dreaded words no mother wants to hear pierced my heart and soul… “I’m sorry. There’s no heartbeat.” I couldn’t breathe. I shook. I wept. I felt hollow. My body cramped and ached. My heart ached more. I was left to grieve,…
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